Those two words may seem like an oxymoron. Two words that are not supposed to be seen together because loneliness is something reserved for the elderly and that's way into the future and doesn't effect us (youth). But a conversation a had yesterday with someone my own age really reminded me about the loneliness that everyone else must feel around me. Generally people seem to forget that if you are struggling in this way, what stops others from feeling the same way? But anyone can be lonely even if you aren't alone. I am surrounded by people constantly whether its classmates, family or even people in the bus. Its rare to be alone, in fact. Loneliness is a feeling of emptiness that is numbing and painful at the same time. Its difficult because it isn't just about making friends with those similar to you but its being able to click with someone and share your struggles with them. Humans are made for each other. We can't live alone and without each other. That is why prison solitary confinement is a punishment. Its painful to live feeling like there is no one else there for you regardless of those around you sometimes.
Another difficult thing I have had with social media and loneliness is the idea that for a long time I have felt alone in my thoughts and beliefs. Until social media exposed thousands of people who think similarly to me. But then I had a problem with it? The idea that now I wasn't the different one and was now the same as everyone else felt lonely within itself. I was drowning in this huge pit where everyone else looked and breathed like me. I didn't feel special or needed or wanted. It was just this obsession with having something I couldn't have anymore.
Bye
Imbored